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Where the rainbow ends: Regret after medical injury of the genitals

Things that woke media will never say. 

“I am now nine years on testosterone and i am like you know extremely stressed, I have surgery after surgery after surgery after surgery, I’ve almost completed bottom surgery it has been extremely painful it has been extremely long-winded …

… I’d give a massive warning just a huge warning to anybody…It’s been really unenjoyable as well i’m sorry …

… I don’t really want to go to the gym today and you don’t go to the gym and you start eating for a bit you know like a few months and the next thing you know your love handles are back man you’ve got an arse again and next thing you know you’ve got a whole you know that little curvy body and it’s like hold on I haven’t worked out for like a few months why is it all my hard work in the gym it’s all it’s all gone and remember i’m nine years on t I’ve had all different surgeries like i’m like complete with this shit now like why is this shit happening to me you know I’m saying no it’s always going to happen because that’s just how biology says so like genetic I mean genetics …

… I changed my mind transitioning hasn’t been as great as a lot of people make it seem and you know i’m not gonna be one of them people to add to the list we’re just gonna i’m gonna you know deceive people and make them feel like this is all that fun it’s not fun it’s not fun …

… You are like even like say if you’re a cisgendered male and you still have like you know complexes with yourself you want to be like you know as big as that guy have a bigger biggest dick as that guy and you know you want to be the strongest and so imagine you know you’re not even a cisgendered man when you’re trying to do all of this stuff and it’s such hard upkeep and you’ve got estrogen fighting in your body …

… It hasn’t changed me all it’s done is really give me unrealistic expectations that make me you know ruined my mind in the process I was gorgeous before like nine years ago I was gorgeous now I don’t feel so cool is because my personality is so ugly …

… My name is Rosh. I’ve been on t for nine years had full surgery and I’m exhausted I’m knackered and I just wanna let everybody know that anybody that’s wanting to go around go for the surgery anything anyone that wants to watch videos on all quick edited videos looking all nice all flexing muscles and shit and you know talking about  my life’s changing you can change your life for the worse as well …”

(sorry for the text errors. it’s from video subtitles.)

“I was born a male I started living as a female when I was 19 years old had a sex change when I was 30 years old I’ve now been living as a woman for 28 years and I fully regret this nobody can change genders it’s impossible it’s delusional it’s a mental illness.”

“It’s horrible the sex change didn’t solve my discomfort. The doctors who are honest will say that the gender dysphoria is always there and it’s because the confusion is it’s not so much it starts out being about your anatomy but really what it’s you don’t like yourself.”

“My father was pretty much absent most of my childhood he was an alcoholic my mother was mentally ill the childhood was so troubled and so traumatic that in retrospect I was able to look at it and realized that there was no way I was getting out of childhood.”

“Billie contacted me by email like most people do and we began to exchange information and I talked to him on the phone. His story was just like mine he was sexually abused I was sexually abused and that was kind of the trigger point of changing genders.”

“I started living when as a woman when I was 20 I’ve lived 40 years of my life I had breast augmentation I’ve had genital surgery I’ve had 40 years of hormones all of it has not made my life any better it’s never solved the problem. You break your your left leg you go into a doctor’s office and under the transsexual rule of medical treatment they say this is your new normal and we’re going to break your right leg too.”

“I think it’s safe to say that when somebody has been cross-dressed and affirmed physically abused and sexually abused that psychotherapy is the most needed therapy not hormones.”

What do you think?

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hybridcreature
hybridcreature
3 months ago

I’ve always thought this was so sad for trans people, that they will ultimately realize they haven’t solved their problems, that gender euphoria is short-lived, and that there is no going back once the surgeries begin. I really am all for people living their own lives and having the authority to do whatever they want to their own bodies, but it bums me out that no one wants to talk about why trans people REALLY commit suicide at alarming rates. it isn’t because of public perception of them, it isn’t because of some mass scale bigotry the MM tells us about every day, it’s because they were almost definitely mentally ill when they started the process and for some reason we live in a society that instead of trying to heal the route cause, just accelerates and amplifies it, convincing people to mutilate themselves for personal freedom. Again, IF you are a trans person reading this who is happy- more power to you. Please don’t misunderstand me. But also, if you’re a trans person reading this, I would bet my life savings you know someone who fits the bill of what I’m talking about in your community.

hybridcreature
hybridcreature
3 months ago

What does “approval” have to do with anything? It doesn’t matter what I approve of or not lmao. I don’t approve of your interpretation of this comment, but it doesn’t negate your right to post it. People have fat injected into the balls of their feet to make wearing high heels more comfortable. People do have their body parts cut off, shaved down, altered, lifted, filled, grafted… it is their right to do so. Freedom of choice. I thought we were all on the same page here about that.

Emily
Emily
3 months ago
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Great comment

Luis Meriño Vásquez
Luis Meriño Vásquez
3 months ago

This must be truly horrible and sad for them! I feel truly sad for them and also admire them. Living that life it’s not easy at all. They are very brave. Not everyone is brave enough to say that openly and live like that and it’s horrible sad and awful! :/ :'(

Meg Buchanan
Meg Buchanan
3 months ago

Nobody will listen to this guy. And its too late for him. But when we try to help others we are looked at as bigoted.

juniper
juniper
3 months ago

Show this to anyone you love who is struggling with their sexuality.